Can you even remember life pre-parenthood anymore? You know –
B.K. – Before Kids. I think back to times when I was out with friends – even before
I met my husband – and now I find myself wondering “Who was watching the kids
when…” I was at that concert? That party? That spa day? That Bachelorette party
in Vegas? That week long work trip? I know it’s totally not logical, but my
head is so firmly set in Mom mode I can’t even picture life without my little
birds.
Three years B.K. I was 26 and living a happy, full (so I
thought), busy, single life. I worked out for 2 hours almost every day, spent
time with family and friends not based on anyone’s nap time, my roommate and I bought
groceries for ourselves (AKA wine and beer) and I worked a full time corporate
job without contemplating the cost of 8-5 preschool. So carefree, right?! I was
my own responsibility – that’s it.
My mind – my world – is now so consumed (in the happiest
way) with these boys of mine that it truly is hard to even remember life
without them. I think to myself, “Wow! I went to see Jack Johnson on the field
of UCSD and I didn’t need a babysitter? Whaaaaat?!”. I know some people say
life didn’t really start until they saw their child’s face for the first time. Now,
listen, that moment changed my life forever in the most amazing way, but let’s
not discount life before kids because that was filled with great times too!
The point is my world was forever changed in February of
2009 and again in November of 2010. My goals changed from being focused on my
happiness to putting every ounce of energy I have into creating the best
childhood for my sons. Raising confident, independent, caring, kind, happy,
intelligent little men. That is my goal, my new dream. So, yes, I still
absolutely enjoy and look forward to girl time at the spa, concerts with my
husband and quiet time, but I always know that I have those two sweet faces waiting
for me and that means more than anything!
